Are you there, Self Worth? It’s me, Barbara.
Self worth…
Why does it seem so elusive? It’s like a summer breeze blowing by, leaving a faint smell of fragrant flowers. Yes I feel it…Oops it’s gone. Come back!!
The body, mind, heart, and spirit all require true self love and acceptance, yet they interact like a noisy bunch of dysfunctional family members, filled with conflicting thoughts and reactions.
How the heck do we get to the place of unwavering conviction, standing in the belief of “I AM WORTHY AND DESERVING JUST AS I AM.”
Why can’t we just envision, fantasize, and dream the best scenarios of life? Ah, because that would be too easy and we are not part of Earth School for the easy. We are part of a huge awakening. It takes commitment, perseverance, and resiliency. Above all, it takes love for self and others.
We put the cart before the horse, leaving us to wonder why life doesn’t always flow. And that’s not to say we can’t manifest, it just may not look like what we thought. But that’s a whole different blog post.
It ALWAYS comes back to self. To embody self in its purest Divine image is our first challenge. To embody I am worthy, I am deserving, I love me, I am perfect as I am is our biggest hurdle. Why? Because this is what we are here to do: to remember, to rediscover we are already perfect. All we need is within, lying silently, hoping we will have our aha! moment. That’s when the fun can begin!
So many of us chase what we think we need, externally. And there are plenty willing to help us, offering a course to fix this, a self help book to fix that, a podcast (or a thousand) featuring every expert on a certain topic, and Gurus and teachers a plenty. While they offer sage advice and wisdom, it’s up to us to ultimately guide ourselves back to our space of deep knowing. There isn’t anything easy or even pleasant about this inward excavation. But until we are willing to roll up our sleeves and dig deep, we will continually be challenged by life. The sooner we fall in love with self, (warts and all) the sooner we will no longer be subjected to what’s happening around us. When we can resource our own needs by going within, the outside world affects us less. When we shift from happening to me to happening for me, growth becomes inevitable.
Embodying self love affords us the ability to take that breath, and view the situation from a place of wondering, what’s here for me? That helps us stand grounded in love and compassion as opposed to just reacting.
We know where we’re going but how do we get there? There is no road map. Each journey back to self, is soul/spirit specific. Only our soul/spirit can lead us within. Lovingly, with gentleness and compassion, it waits for us. Lord knows there’s plenty of information on how to do it. A human could spend unlimited amounts of money and untold lifetimes trying to travel from the head to the heart. So what are we missing that this seems to be such a daunting task? Do we overthink it? Possibly. We definitely doubt ourselves. Then there’s the ego. The ego certainly loves the limelight, front and center, in control, leading the way down the same old path. The pied piper of the old dance, just a different day. The ego can take on many facets masked as emotions, inevitably keeping us from the alignment and peace we crave. When we take the journey to the heart, the ego is no longer the ring leader. It can then begin to facilitate what the heart wants, what the soul/spirit wants. The ego is a great co-pilot, once it feels safe, heard, and valued. It’s a terrible leader when it’s running the show. I liken it to a whirling dervish, just creating mayhem for the fun of it.
So our daily practice then becomes noticing what is happening within, keeping that awareness throughout the day. What do we notice happening inside while we are at work, hangry, picking the kids up from school, making dinner? You get the idea.
The morning is a wonderful time to ground, check in with heart, spirit/soul, mind and body. Once aligned and ready for the day, set the intention. And lastly, breathe. Breathe often, breathe deep. And breathe slow. The breath is such a powerful ally. Its ability to calm us is a gift we can experience as often as necessary, never ending and ever gratifying.
Hopefully, we then have an opportunity to experience life in its most beautiful form. The magic of nature, the interaction with another, a delicious cup of coffee, the laughter of children. Maybe we can even create the life we desire. Remembering always, it starts and ends with self.
